| Coheed & Cambria t o n i t e.
Cant Wait (to see you*).
*just.kidding
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| Im scared that you're the one that got away...
and i want you here with me tonite.
If it werent for music, i dont think id make it through life. I love it. I love how just one song can bring back so many memories. Different artists remind me of different times in my life. I absolutely love that feeling. It makes me want to go back. Dashboard, Brand New, The Beatles .. i love them all.
I’m fighting myself
to get you out of my head
But I’m hanging off of every word you said
Let.It.Be. |
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| As you grow up, you learn that its more important to have a few, really close friends that you can always count on.. than to have an a lot of friends. You learn that its okay to stay home on a Saturday night. You should learn that your girl friends are way more important that your 'boyfriend'. Some people dont get that. Basically people arent who you think they are... they are followers and will eventually learn the hard way.
Oh yeah, listen to The Fray.
They are amazing. |
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| Its been a while, but i always come back when i need to let out my feelings. Dont get me wrong i have great people around me to talk to.. but sometimes i need to just write and be alone.
That quote from The Notebook "The first time you fall in love, it just never goes away"... well thats probably one of the most factual quotes ive ever heard. I always thought i dealt well with change.. it wasnt until this summer that i realized that wasnt true. I missed everything about last summer.. about you. It was so comforting knowing that you were always there.. you were always willing to make me happy, listen to me, or just sit with me so i wouldnt have to be alone. Im not sure what it is that i miss the most; but im hoping to figure that out. Ive definitely matured a lot over the past year when in comes to relationships. It just kills me because it took so long. I never realized how lucky i truely was. So far no one has made me that happy but you. You are a wonderful and caring person and you mean the world to me.. you always will. Im really not too sure if you know that. That was my problem, i was afraid to love.. i was afraid to trust.. i was afraid of getting hurt.. and afraid to let someone know how i felt about them. But loves not about worrying that you might get hurt. Its about loving someone so much and trusting they will never do anything to hurt you, or see you hurting in any way. I know that now.. i dont know what did it.. but something changed me.. Maybe its when i found out that you were with someone else. See before, you werent with anyone for a while.. atleast no one that i knew about. The say that you dont really realize how much you care about someone until you no longer have them. I guess you could say that this was the case for me. Believe me i want to see you happy.. it just hurts so bad knowing that you're with someone else. It seems selfish, but its just love. I am finally ready to say that yes, i am in love with you. Thats scary in some ways because it makes it so much easier for me to get hurt. I dont know how you feel anymore.. actually i didnt know how you felt most of the time i was falling for you. But finally you did let me know.. you opened up to me and i feel so bad because i didnt and couldnt do the same. If you go back to any of the talks we've had about it... i would have done a lot of things differently. I would have been honest and let you know that it wasnt just an infatuation.. it was love... The reason i know this is because I still to this day get butterflies when i call or see you. Thats never been the case with anyone else before. Its only you, and it most likely always will be. So after all of this i guess you could say that the thing i miss most isnt any specific thing... its you. I guess i have only have one thing left to say; and that is that I love you. I love you probably more that you know. Please remember that, and know that i am always here .. no matter what. |
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